Hello everyone!
I really wanted to wait til we had something to celebrate for this blog. But we must wait awhile longer. Everything was filed last October so we should get a decision from the Parole Board soon. They have been working on Death Penalty clemencies the past couple of months, and probably will bring me up soon after...I’ll still have to be blessed by the governor, but everything is in place ---so we wait.
In the meantime, I thought this blog should be about loss and what to do when you lose something dear to you. We lose lots of things but tend to accept that loss as the norm. People die, things break, things that can never be replaced. But have you ever lost anything where in one instant you know its gone? Something so dear that you know nothing will ever be right again no matter what? What do you do with that--with something that nothing can ever make right?
I lost my youth to time, nothing can ever fix that. All I can do is continue to move forward and make the best of what's left to me. I lost my Mom, a person we know nothing can replace or make right. Yet we move forward because we believe their spirit watches over us, so we are fine. I guess we are meant to lose yesterday without such an empty feeling. But what do you do when you lose today? When you lose tomorrow? And you know it? Hmmm...I wish I knew?
I lost something I know I can never have back, and that's got to be okay. But is it really 34 years I've been okay? God has truly blessed me...but am I really okay? We shall see.
Until then I will move forward chin up, spirits high, full of hope that my freedom comes soon. I will say it as my sister does when she prays to God,“I'm calling it done.” I lost something I never meant to lose, but then everything is loseable--yesterday,today, and, yes, tomorrow.
God bless you all, and thank you for hanging with me. Maybe the next blog will be that blog that finds me free. Maybe I will lose something bad for a change.
Arthur
